and I thought it would be Honor to land us in the hospital
Last night we threw a wedding shower for our friend Josh and his fiance Heather at the church. Josh has been our youth pastor for the last year and is now moving on to get married and then go to Bible school. He’s leaving town next week. The shower was just wrapping up when we heard Eden’s blood curdling scream from the next room. The kids had been playing in one of the classrooms and somehow Eden fell and busted up her nose on the Lego table.
Jim went to get her and as I saw him walk by with her I noticed the blood gushing out of her nose. We cleaned her up in the bathroom when we realized that it was cut pretty deep in two places. We decided to take her to the ER for stitches. My mom met us at the hospital to take Honor, because there’s NO way we could have contained him there (good LORD!) and the waiting game began.
As we went through the check in process, we had to endure the many judgmental questions about our waiting to immunize. Because, you know, we’re waiting because we hate our children and want to do the worst possible thing for them. Sometimes the medical field can’t understand that they do more harm than good at times. And it’s frustrating to have to defend your parenting choices to everyone in the hospital.
She had x-rays, and luckily it’s not broken. She kept saying that she wanted to go back to the picture room. I think it was because she got to ride around on the hospital bed. And luckily it wasn’t deep enough to need stitches, the doctor just glued the cuts together. Eden said that they were going to “blue her nose.” Probably the worst part of the night for her was when she got her first shot ever, a tetanus shot. Poor kid, it was awful! And it made me glad that she hadn’t had to endure any other shots before.
I think the worst part of the night for me was when we got home and crawled into bed and I started processing the night. Of course the “what ifs” began running through my head. It is the worst imaginable thing in the world to even think about your child dying. How would I continue if I lost one of them? It fills me with panic to even think about it. It makes me want to lock them up in a padded room in the house and never let them near anything dangerous. But I can’t. I’ve got to let them face all of life’s dangers, take all of life’s risks. All I can do to protect them is trust God that he will keep them safe. Letting them go is the hardest part of being a parent and it’s the most inevitable. And I have to say, it kind of sucks.
Category: Eden 12 comments »
August 1st, 2005 at 8:22 am
There is nothing worse than the feeling than you can’t really protect your child as well as you would like. That’s been the hardest part of Tasia being sick over the last year and a half is that as much as I want to take it away and protect her… all I can do is pray and plead the blood of Jesus over them every night. It’s a hard thing to “trust” when your a mama. I’m so glad she’s okay and so sorry you had to endure our terrible GJ ER!
August 1st, 2005 at 9:33 am
Oh poor Eden! It’s the WORST when they are hurt. You would so much rather it be you. Hang in there.
August 1st, 2005 at 9:46 am
Oh Allison! I am so so sorry. Poor Eden and her cute little nose. It is just one thing after another…when will it stop?
August 1st, 2005 at 9:47 am
Oh Allison, Man that is a tough sucky thing, watching your child be hurt. Luckly your through it this time, and maybe a bit more mental prepared for the future.. maybe.
I know I have been mia, but you know where to find me if you need me! I keep eden and her blued nose in my prayers:)
August 1st, 2005 at 10:01 am
I retract my comment about feeling lucky I am the mother of girls.
We all worry and push the thought of loosing them out of our minds in the middle of the night. Sometimes I feel it coming on, like a scream that won’t stop and I’ll actually find myself with my hand clamped over my mouth… as though that could stop it.
Becoming a parent has taught me the depths of love and the limitless bunds of terror. One hell of a job, eh?
August 1st, 2005 at 11:19 am
aw, poor Eden! They always take it much better than we do, though!
August 1st, 2005 at 6:13 pm
Good grief – who knew that legos were so freaking dangerous???
Already been there/done that with the “help me I can’t control every move to keep my child alive” thing and went nuts.. until I let it all go and realized there are a multitude of reasons why I named my child Faith..
I’m glad Eden is okay.
August 3rd, 2005 at 2:05 am
Hey, so sorry to hear. Tramatizing! All I can say is I’m so glad she wasn’t with me. I would have died! But on the other hand I totally trust you guys if something like that happened when you have Alannah. Lots of love, see you soon!
August 3rd, 2005 at 2:09 am
I don’t know how you did it. I don’t do well with broken bones or cuts. Josh got a four inch laceration on his leg down to the muscle on Saturday and I about passed out!! I am not an ER nurse. I guess Josh will take care of the bumps & bruises.
Prayers for a quick recovery!!
August 3rd, 2005 at 2:23 am
Hi, I’m so sorry to hear. The day Alannah broke her leg, was my worst day ever. All I can say is I’ve been there and I’m so glad little Eden wasn’t with me. I would have just died! Lots of love, see you soon.
August 27th, 2005 at 4:17 pm
I know what you mean. The flu season of 2003 was the worst for me. My daughter, Giovanna, got a bad case of the flu and it seemed that every time I watched the news, another child had died from it. I kept praying and asking God to let her get through it OK.
I became an emotional wreck, however, I took care of her night and day and after almost two weeks of being sick, she got better.
The thought of losing her is unbearable and. If I could, I would gladly endure all the suffering that she ever has to face in life.
November 18th, 2005 at 9:01 pm
I came across your site while researching when or if to immunize my 19 month old son. I am getting some outside pressure and I just can’t make a desision I am 100% comfortable with. I would love to hear from you about your desision to wait to immunize. I hope you little one’s nose is doing ok. They can break your heart every day can’t they?