This morning, we woke up at 6am to go on a bike ride. Getting the kids up early is never fun, because I just keep thinking of all the quite time I just forfeited. Getting myself up early is never fun either. I just keep thinking, my birthday is a month from now and I want to be able to buy clothes with my birthday money in a smaller size and have them fit. I don’t know why it was so hard this morning. We frequently go on bike rides and this time it killed. It makes me really frustrated with myself, because as much as I really want to feel good about my body, I just really, really don’t like pain.

About losing weight: I started to read this website the other day, Losing the Cow . It is really really profound. I’ve only read the first blog post, but really, there are so many good things. I think what I took away from it is this: As bad as you may want it, you have to find what’s keeping you from it.

Sometimes life should be easy.

But there are good things about riding early.
*It’s not hot.
*There’s no one on the trail to notice how sloooow you’re going.
*When you puke, there’s nothing in your stomach to come out.
*We’re up so early that we’re back in time to watch the first round of Dora on Nickelodeon.
*Hopefully, hopefully, hopefully the kids will take a good nap.
*I’m awake to iron Jim’s shirt while he takes a shower. Yeah… that’s not as much good for me as it is for him. In fact it’s not good for me at all.
*There’s lots and lots and lots of time to gaze at your bed longingly and wish you were there.

yup. A morning of good things. Martha would be proud.