I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what I don’t have, or what I think I don’t have. I was thinking about what I thought my life would be when I was married with kids. There were certain specific small things that I wanted. I wanted a husband who would lay in bed with me and talk late into the night. I wanted children who didn’t smear things on the wall, things like boogers and poop. And maybe I don’t have those specific small things, but it sort of hit me the other day. I have it. I have the life that I always wanted.

Emotions may not always follow reality, sometimes you don’t feel in love and sometimes you don’t feel like you want to be a mother. But the fact is that I’m in love with all of it.

I’ll continue to post pictures of the yarn pile as it grows.

Here’s the first of it. Books and Southwest Trading Company and lamps for the store. Notice that the first thing I did with the yarn was put it in correct rainbow color order. I’m obsessive that way. Today I’m expecting more in!!

I ordered all the rest of my yarn yesterday. Holy cow, I spent a lot of money! I’m so excited for it all to be coming in! Some of it might even come in today! I ordered wool and silk and cashmere and cotton and soy silk and lots of patterns and books and needles. I even ordered the new Clover knit lites. I could have used lighted knitting needles when we were coming home from Denver.

We spent the entire weekend folding and stapling and taping and folding and folding and FOLDING my newsletter. Jim has vowed that he will never fold another newsletter again. (Um, yeah, until the newsletter comes out again in two months.) I foresee a lot of folding in my future. Click here (PDF) to view the newsletter in PDF format. I’m really happy with it.

I’ve also picked out some furniture for the store. I’m getting this sofa from Kmart of all places. Gotta love the Martha Stewart Everyday. And I’m getting this table. It’s all very exciting.

The old store closes Saturday and then I can get in and start cleaning and painting. I’m feeling really good about the timeline. Everything should be all ready to go by August 1st!! Tonight is my meeting with all the teachers and I’ve got to go pick up some yummy snacks and drinks. I figure if nothing else, I can get them to like me because I feed them well.

Everything is falling into place… it’s all seeming SO real!!

More to come…

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Monday night we decided at the last minute to join our friends in Cederedge, CO to go camping. I’m glad that we went, we haven’t been all summer, despite our best intentions. This was also Tucks first camping trip. He did pretty well, even though we couldn’t let him run free. (We were fairly close to the road and some houses.) We had him sleep in the tent with us and I was just thankful that he didn’t try to sleep on my face.

Here are a few pictures from our trip.

Oh, good Lord, things have been SO crazy around here. Today and tomorrow are yarn ordering days. All I can think about is yarn, I eat sleep and breathe it, it seems. Yesterday I was trying to tell Eden not to take sand out of the sandbox and instead I told her to put the yarn back in the sandbox.

More about the yarn (and more yarn) later. Somehow over this weekend, amidst the yarn decisions, camping and watching fireworks, I managed to crank out this baby sweater for my sister’s best friend.

It’s a pattern from Knitting for Two. I’m too lazy to get up and go look at which pattern it actually is. The yarn is Louet Sapphire, a chunky superwash. My mom was sweet enough to sew the zipper in for me and the grosgrain ribbon lining. All I have to say about the sweater is that I HATE seaming.

I changed several things about the pattern. For the shoulders, I did the three needle bind off. I left off the part on the front pieces that were supposed to be sewn around the neck and instead, picked up stitches around the entire neck and did an applied i-cord bind off. I also knit the sleeves in the round until the shoulder shaping and then knit the rest flat. And then I sewed and sewed and sewed the freaking seams.

But, overall, I still liked it. Now back to the YARRRRN!