I’m not feeling very well. I’m really tired of not feeling very well. The last couple weeks I’ve had to deal with some family issues, so I can’t tell if it’s the emotional let down (things are mostly settled down now) or maybe some bug I’m fighting off. But I found myself telling Honor, “You have to be nice to me, I don’t feel good” and I realized why he always says the exact same thing to me when he’s not feeling good.

And he told me, “Mom, you’re so tute (cute)” so that made me feel much better. And Eden read a level 5 book today. Sometimes it’s the little things you have to hold onto until the big things right themselves.

Once and awhile I wonder why you love me.
Me and my not so perfect body.
Me and my crazy moods.
How could you in your wonderfulness love me in my messes?
And every time I find myself doing things that hurt you, somehow you can forgive me.
And on top of that you help me out of the hole that I dug for myself.
You forgive my constant mistakes and forget them.
When I do things that embarrass you, you don’t look the other way and pretend that you don’t know me. You walk over, take my hand and stand with me in my shame.
When I’m hurt, you cry with me.
When I’m angry, you counteract me with peace.
Through all my mistakes, embarrassments, heartaches and anger, you love me.
In my unperfectness, you always love me.

I’m so behind on posting and taking pictures of what I’ve knit it’s ridiculous. It seems like my knitting and the camera are never in the same place at the same time. But I do have a small offering for you.

The Matilda hat: I knit this one out of Eco Wool. Can I just say how great that yarn is? It just seems like the skein is never ending. This hat was knit from the leftovers from my fitted knits cardi.

With this hat I also demonstrated the power of blocking. The brim was all floppy and mooshy and after an agressive steam, it turned out perfect! Christina shared with me her German way of blocking. She lays a damp towel directly on the knitting and then lays the iron directly on the towel and steams away. It’s nice because it drys in no time.

Overall, I love the hat. I just wish I would have made it a tad smaller.