I have it
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what I don’t have, or what I think I don’t have. I was thinking about what I thought my life would be when I was married with kids. There were certain specific small things that I wanted. I wanted a husband who would lay in bed with me and talk late into the night. I wanted children who didn’t smear things on the wall, things like boogers and poop. And maybe I don’t have those specific small things, but it sort of hit me the other day. I have it. I have the life that I always wanted.
Emotions may not always follow reality, sometimes you don’t feel in love and sometimes you don’t feel like you want to be a mother. But the fact is that I’m in love with all of it.
Category: me 5 comments »
July 13th, 2006 at 9:52 am
I am living my dream too. In some ways it is not as I imagined. In the important ways, it is. Lots of joy and love:)
July 13th, 2006 at 12:37 pm
:) Amen!
July 13th, 2006 at 11:06 pm
Well spoken. =)
July 14th, 2006 at 1:44 pm
That is so awesome Allie!! I’m so glad you feel like this- I do too. I feel so blessed by God when I look at my life, and I count you as one of those blessings too…
July 25th, 2006 at 5:22 pm
ahhhh – you made my chin wobble! this is one of the sweetest posts! Kudos to you! Enjoy it!